haiz......im really feeling sad rite now. i really miss POP/POC! the tyme dat NCO 08/09 bonded lyke nvr b4. the mark of a whole new fwenship, trust and respect for 1 another no matter our differences. i can still rmbr Mrs Mok saying dat my squad is the only squad in history dat doesn't hav any conflicts. BULLSHIT LA! haiz..... SERIOUSLY!! if u guys are in my shoe, u guys would noe how it feels lyke. esp now......haiz......

dun't u guys noe dat i miss u guys SOOO DAMN FUCKING FREAKING MUCH!!! i miss the laughter, us teasing each other, us being comfortable wit each other. wat happened to u guys? i want to point dis out esp to ting yan. i cant believe u. i dunno whether u wanna end dis fwenship or nt la...bt i noe i dun want to. TING YAN! u noe for urself dat u hav changed rite? y cant u change back? wats e matter wit u? y do i keep on fighting wit u? haiz....

i wan all of nco 08/09 to be 2gether lyke b4. y cant we b lyke b4? is it SOO DAMN FREAKING DIFFICULT?y are we breaking up NOW? aft we hav gotten SOO far and b SOO close to each other? y must EVERYTHING U SAY HURT ME? it HURTS u noe! it hurts really badly dat all i can do is to stop myself frm crying rite in front of ur face everytyme. y do u hav to b SOO sarcastic nw?

To Ting Yan:
I wan to noe ur reason. Ur part of e story. I dun wanna jump to conclusions. i was super close to u. i was ur sis. ur np mate.... until recently...i totally regret joining osl u noe...sometimes i wish dat i hav nt even meet u...nt even gotten super duper close to u...nt even in np...i hate dis!! ever heard of this phrase? what hurt the most, is being soo close? now everytyme i hear this song i'll cry okay! i'll tink abt all the fights i had wit u. i dun wanna tink abt dat.i wan us to b lyke b4. i wan to be ur sis again. ur close fwen. i miss dat. y must u change aft the aem? i miss the old u. the old u won't shout at his own squad mates even if his really very irritated wit dem. the old u wont scold or shout at his own squad mates if dey didn't listen to hyme. y are u treating us as cadets? y are u ironically treating the sec 3s 2009 jus lyke ur own squad mates? if u really wanna b wit dem so much den go into fancy drills la...i dun care. i dun wanna care anymore. wat do u take ur squad mates for huh? SHIT?!!! i wanna noe!!! i admit it. im jealous dat u treat e sec 3s 2009 lyke ur squad. im hurt dat aft 3 yrs of being ur squad mates u can still say dat ur closer to dem den me. DO U REALISE DAT EVERYTHING U SAY HURTS ME? ARGH!!!! i dunno wat to do anymore. im sick and tired of fighting. i noe dat u wont wan to change ur attitude bcause of ur squad mates bt pls... cnt u at least understand us ? we hav alreadi respect u. treat u lyke a leader. listen to u( mayb sumtimes we dun bt dats bcause we tink dat we hav done enuf and deserve sum rest). now its ur turn to listen to us. understand us. RESPECT us. TREAT US LYKE UR SQUAD MATES. TING YAN! ONLY 4 MORE MNTHS LEFT EHK!! WTH!! u really wanna break up our squad? i noe sumtimes the arguments is my fault. im really sry for dat. i wanna change myself too kays? i dun wanna fight anymore. i jus wan us to b in gd terms. i dun wanna lose my close fwen. i wan hyme back. pls...i play my part and u play urs kays? i hope dat wen sch reopens we are back lyke we were b4 in POP/POC. this is jus a bit of my feelings. Ting yan. if u are reading dis, pls, call me. i wanna tok to u and sort dis out. i dun wanna continue lyke dis.

im crying now wen im writing dis. it really hurts to argue wit sum1 dat is very close to u.

yup2. dats all. i realy hope dis problem cn b solve asap la. haiz...